Hard to Say Goodbye...

Today is VERY bittersweet for me.  If you read , then you know that for me twitter has been a lot more than just a social network.  I get to meet some of my sorority sisters in person for the first time later today and I'm SUPER excited. But the event that led to this meet and greet was not a happy one.  We lost our Soror Crystal Y. Davis suddenly.  Everyone keeps saying that it doesn't feel real-- and it doesn't.  I feel as if I'm sitting here waiting to be shaken awake from a horrible nightmare, and she'll be there.  So far, no such luck.  Sickle cell took her from us, and knowing that she's no longer in any pain is comforting, but I find myself wanting to know why? Why her? Why us? Why her family and her daughters? I am unable to make it to DC for the services, so my sorors and I will celebrate HER life today in New Orleans.  Rest In Paradise big sis.  We love you and miss you. And like Cyd said, you're dancing with the angels now.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone! Hope everyone enjoys this day and has lots of family and love surrounding them.

Go Girl It's Ya Birthday...

... however there will be no partying.  Today I turn 28 years young.  BUT I will still tell people 25.  27 was a CRAZY year for me. The year started bad, was bad in the middle and ended badly.  But you know what? I am alive, kinda healthy, and I have a ton of family, friends, and Sorors who love me.  And to be truly loved by these people that I have in my life? Best gift anyone could receive.  Things could be better but they could be worse, so I am thankful to see another birthday.

I'll actually be at work Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday nights (which kinda sucks but Lord knows I'm blessed and thankful for this job), but when the clock strikes 12am Wednesday morning, I'm going to celebrate.  Not just for me but for my Soror Cryssy, a fellow Sagittarius, whose birthday celebration I could not attend and now she's no longer with us.


Oh and this song will be on repeat at several different times today. Rihanna- Birthday Cake.

More than Just a Social Network...

Twenty four hours ago I received proof that twitter is more than just a social network.  It came in form of a text from my Soror Z who said she had bad news.  She told me that she'd called to check on our Soror Cryssy Davis and was told that she had passed.  Surely I was reading this incorrectly. No way this was right. Maybe she'd dialed the wrong number.  So many things went through my head.  How could this be happening? She has two young daughters under age 4- one only a few months old.  Surely they have not lost their mother.  And then the tears started to flow.

And honestly they haven't really stopped.  I got no sleep yesterday.  I got on twitter early, hoping to have been awakened from what seemed like a bad dream.  What I saw only made the flow of tears increase.  so many people loved Cryssy. She touched SO many of us and what's weird is that a lot of us haven't met her face to face.  It is proof that you can love someone you haven't met that, that they can be an important part of your life, through texts, emails and tweets.

I hadn't known her long but I knew her long enough to know that she had such a big heart.  She was full of love and genuinely cared about people.  After having her baby she was the one checking on me when I was having a rough time and in need of encouragement.  I can't tell you all how much it meant to see the simple message "how are you doing today baby girl?"  You just had a baby, I should be checking on you, but she had to make sure that I was doing okay.

She definitely left an imprint in my heart and memory forever, and I noticed today the amount of my Sorors who felt the same way.  Some new her longer, some had spent time with her in person, but we all loved her and we all miss her already.  And her love reached so much further than just my sorority sisters. Other friends of hers who also loved her, and who were brought into our lives by her, people who I can also say that I care about, expressed their love for Cryssy.  In the end one thing was evident-- no way was this "just twitter." It's like we have a little family.  A crazy family that makes us laugh, gives us advice, shares their lives with us in so many ways.  I plan to start meeting more of my twitter family, but even if I don't, they all have a special place in my heart.